2. Facing the Truth

But all of those months, God had been working on my heart. One of my best friends died suddenly in April, 2009. Not only was he one of my best friends, he was also my father-in-law and business partner. That really put my priorities in order. I didn’t want to leave the side of my family. I just wanted to hold them close to me. Looking back, my entire April and May were a total blur. Blacked out. I finally mustered up the courage to talk to someone about my calling in July, 2009.

It was July 21, 2009. About four months since that night in the youth room. I finally faced the truth. At this point, I hadn’t told ANYONE yet. I went to a very trusted pastor and mentor in my church. Part of the reason I am writing this is because I think there are people that are called into the ministry and don’t know who to turn to or where to go. I am hoping my story will help them by giving them something to relate to. I have been blessed with an abundance of mentors in my life. I realize that some may be doing this alone. Even with all of the mentors I have, I often still feel alone in this walk.

I had developed an insatiable appetite for the Bible. I felt like God was preparing me for something. I had to share this with someone! I took the chicken route. I asked Pastor Bill (the Youth Pastor and my mentor at the time) to share with me his story of how he got called. I wanted to see if there were any similarities. My thinking was if I was way off, I can get out of this easy without even telling anyone! Well imagine that, it was almost parallel to my experience. Someone actually understood what I was feeling!! But I wanted confirmation from God…


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